I've made my own statement necklaces! :---D

Udah lama banget pengen bikin statement necklace sendiri tapi gatau dimana tempat beli bahan2nya. Tapiii setelah akhirnya dikasih tau nyokap tempat beli bahan2nya dimana, langsung deh gw kesana beli bahan2nya dan langsung bikin my own 'do-it-yourself' statement necklace!

This one is my favourite. Look at the beautiful feathers ;----D

hihi saking puas dan excitednya (sama hasilnya) tadinya gw mau ikutan 'statement necklaces gogirl competition' yang holiday project itu loh.. haha but i think there's still many gorgeous d-i-y statement necklace out there.. :'')

See you soon with my another creativity! ;-----D

For my future's sake..... ~sigh

Realize that i'm 17th already and just graduated from my highschool this year,
I have a lotssssssssa things and plans that i have to do and reach for my future's sake............

Ini step-step program edukasi yang akan (dan harus!!) gw jalanin 4 taun ke depan..


1. S1 economy management Binus university (starting from this year!)
2. English diploma from Wallstreet institute (a few months again..)
3. Esmod one-year-program 'fashion bussines retail' (next year)

Amiiiiiin, semoga bisa terwujud dengan baik dan lancaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Amin. amin, amin!

Unloveable me :-(

Pretending like nothing happens? Ya that's sounds a good idea.

Hello July!

Waw it's already july, everyone! gila banget ya rasanya taun baru tuh baru kemaren deh, tapi sekarang udah pertengahan taun aja. Dan ga kerasa banget gw udah berbulan-bulan nganggur di rumah semenjak uan, ckck. Dan bulan ini tuh bener2 diawali dengan buruk banget deh, mulai dari ribet masalah thafan veter, ga dapet sekolah buat pindah naik, kesel gara2 dia mau pindah ke bandung, sampe hal-hal lainnya yang akhirnya bikin gw putus. Tapiiiii kita udah balikan lagi kok, hehehe dan yang bikin tambah seneng, thafan ga perlu pindah ke bandung, soalnya dia udah dapet sekolah di depok hahaha tapi itu juga mungkin cuma sementara aja, hehe Alhamdulillah banget deh kita ga jadi long distance :---D
Terus dari kemaren udah demam sama flu gitu, ga enak banget deh semoga aja hari ini bisa sembuh.

Say goodbye to highschool drama

Now i don't have to tryin hard just for being accepted, or being liked or even admired.
Now i don't have to wearing a 'mask' and being faked to anyone.
Now i don't have to put on such a good fake smile anymore.

Real and fake friends don't even have any differences.

Bye bye high school drama.

Trouble sleeping

I can't sleep, it's 3:00 in the morning
My eyes keep searching for something to see, my body starts to twists, from here to there an indication for an exhaustion.

It's Sunday already, Monday is ahead and i never said i was waiting for Monday
cause Monday it is, Mondays we hate
Can I pass Monday please ?Eeergh, don't bother Monday anymore
bother this,the problem-I-always-have-in-every-holidays
trouble sleeping.
a mini vexatious less significant problem I always had
Help me,or at least accompany me until I'm asleep,
and witness myself within my own dream..

Read this (!)

About negative things about me that probably popped in your mind before you continue up reading...
I totally care.
Well, I'm a proud for being myself, and it doesn't make me heartless, that i've been wishing i'd be. All rumors you have spread, those shiteous mocking and talking whatsoever. Have made me think twice about giving respect. We know we're not even friends but please stop misjudging. Because you don't know me at all. My attitude, every sentence that've splitted out my mouth, are not your business. My past and background are not the worldwide news. Myself is not a comparison to others. Pity you couldn't tolerate an odd side of my life, when I was suffering to tolerate yours. And for the sake of being exist, you huddled your "buddies" up by hurting someone. How uncool. Please do not create your own notion based on your over confidence. I believe a douchebag alone is better than huge amount of it. And here I'm free to express what has been running across my brain, so you know what? FUCKTHIS

as time goes by...

Konvoi 17 agt 2008, sman 46 angkatan 2009 <3

My awesome girls, at my 17th birthday


My classmates for 2 years :----)

Our greatest moment.

Back to senior high,
I remember every single minute from my grade 10 until grade 12
Where i stood, where i sat,where i laughed, where i cried,where i was happy, where i was upset where i made things right, and where i messed up.

And where i was, there were my friends who always stood up beside me.
I had the best, i had the worst.
I've felt the loyalty, i've felt the backstabbed.
I fell in love, i fell out of love.
I was young, and i grew up.
I made the wrongs and i learned.
We all write the wrongs.

From time to time we still stand in a circle, a circle of what i called friendship with an additional of love. I drew it up as a circle, cause i don't want any square or rectangle. Square and rectangle has end points, but not a circle, a circle has no end. And that's us, we have no end. No end of love, no end of hopes, no end of laughs, we just got no ending of everything.


So hey there senior high friends! How are you and how's life treating you?

Bye bye high school

3 years passed so fast, and we cry, and we apologize, and we hug, and we thanking each other.
Never thought high school can be so dramatic in the end
Reminiscing our stories through our pictures we took, back when we were out together and sat together, teasing everyone and we made jokes that only us can understand

And through everything that we made...
Goodbye laughs and cries, soul mates and backstabbers, girlfriends and boyfriends !
Say goodbye to high school drama !

and oh, i really can't wait for my prom party tomorrow
byebye then :-)

My fav model (or style icon?)

Guess, who's my favourite model?

Agyness deyn?

Daisy lowe?

Irina lazareanu?

Gema ward?

Dont ever think that one of them is my favourite model. Maybe some of my friends did. Sebenernya, gw sempet suka banget sama daisy lowe. Tapi semenjak majalah gogirl mulai ngebahas dia terus, jadi banyak banget orang2 yang suka sama dia and it makes me not interest with her anymore. Ga tau kenapa gw tuh kalo lagi suka sama sesuatu, bakalan jadi ga suka lagi kalo udah banyak orang yang suka. And how about agyness deyn? she's been all over the runways and the magazines lately, not to mention when she was wearing awful Cosby Show castoffs and pretending to be a dj (does every young famous idiot have to pretend that? Is it a law?) And i've got one of her picture from google

The socks? The ugly footwear? Which one makes this look hideous? There is nothing about what Agyness is doing here that makes her look fashionable. Well, i dont hate her, but i think she looks like trying too hard to be stylish, or to be a fashion icon, whatever.

And i'll tell you my favourite model!

she's..........

Cory Kennedy!

She's a19 American model and i love her, and if you don't already, you will by the end. She is one of those girls that just ooze that I'm-not-fashionable-because-it's-cool-I-just-am attitude. If you have seen the Nylon magz or watched Nylon TV, you'll know what I'm talking about. I really adore her, but not her attitude, cause i've heard that she's a junkie.Talkin about style, or style icon, i've one word to describe what kind of style that i'd like..

Effortless. (and cory kennedy did)

You dont need to hire a hairstylist, baby (hihi)

Yesterday me and thafan decided to spend time together. Dari awal sih rencananya emang mau nemenin thafan potong rambut dulu. Soalnya, gw udah bosen banget sama rambut dia yang gitu2 aja jadi gw nyuruh dia buat motong rambutnya, modelnya tuh yang kanan kirinya tipis itu yang kaya rambutnya vino g bastian ituuuu hahahaha. Awalnya sih dia gamau, dia takut dicakin segala macem terus takut ini itu lah, tapi setelah gw paksa2 akhirnya dia nurut juga.


On the waaay, terus gara2 thafan jemput gw kecepetan jadinya gw ga sempet dandan dan nyatok blablabla padahal gw bener2 baru bangun huhu (tapi udah mandi kok tenang aja) jadi keliatan pucet banget yah? gara2 liat hasil foto yang ini thafan bela2in berenti dulu di pinggir jalan di pi cuma buat nungguin gw dandan, soalnya gw ga bisa make eyeliner kalo mobilnya jalan haha :--D

terus kita sempet bingung mau potong dimana, setelah muter2 akhirnya kita mutusin buat nyari salon di daerah gandaria aja, kan daerah situ sederetan banyak salon2 bagus. terus kita sempet udah parkir di salah satu salon tapi pas thafan masuk, dia langsung keluar lagi gamau gara2 isinya banci semua, ih aneh banget kan. Akhirnya kita ke salon yang di sebelahnya deh. Udah gitu mas2nya kaya ga bener2 ngerti model rambut yang gw pengen, jadinya tuh lamaaa banget setengah jam lebih baru selesai. Sebenernya gw kurang puas sih soalnya yang bagian atas jambangnya itu ga ditipisin banget sama mas2nya, soalnya takut jelek gitu katanya. Tapi menurut gw malah jadi nanggung deh.

Kayanya gw salah ambil angle fotonya deh, soalnya jadi ga begitu keliatan modelnya ya? tapi dari belakang beneran bagus banget deh, soalnya rambut tengahnya dia tuh udah panjang. Nah itu loh yang gw maksud jambangnya ga ikut ditipisin. Nanggung bgt kan? Jadinya pas dia nganterin gw pulang, gw langsung masuk rumah, ambil gunting dan gw potong lagi deh yang bagian jambangnya itu hahaha tapi jadinya bagus kooook.

hihi terus setelah rambut thafan beresssss kita ke pim bentar cuma buat makan sushitei terus pulang deh huhu padahal gw lagi pengen makan seafood yang di fatmawati ituuuu.

nb: sabtu ini gw wisudaaaaaaaa waow i can't wait!

kick ya lateeeeeer!

Prom pram prom

Hellooooooo 10 hari lagi saya prom night loh dan gw belom nyiapin apa2 buat itu. jadi hari ini tuh gw memutuskan buat ngurusin dress prom. kemaren sih gw udah browsing design yg gw mau di internet, finally dapet juga design yang bener2 gw suka. terus tadi siang ngubek2 bombay tekstil mayestik sama mama buat nyari bahan. tadinya sih gw mau satin, soalnya kayanya temen2 gw manda ira arin dan lainnya pada pake bahan itu dan gw liat di fb, prom sekolah lain pada pake bahan itu buat dressnya. tapi kata nyokap gw kalo bahan satin gitu terlalu mengkilat lagipula udah pasaran banget jadi nyokap gw saranin beli bahan sutra aja yaudah deh gw beli bahan sutra yang ternyata muahaaalll huhuhu tapi kata nyokap gw gapapaaaa soalnya kan kalo buat dress 2 meter juga cukup. yaudah deh gw beli bahan sutra+silk chiffon(buat dalemannya gitu) masing2 2 meter.
Terus pas gw sampe rumah, temen nyokap gw (yang ngejaitin baju dressnya) udah ada di rumah udah siap buat ngukur2 segala macem, dan yang bikin nyesek ternyata untuk design dress yang gw mau tuh butuh bahan 5 meter. Jadi gw butuh beli bahan sutra+silk chiffon 3 meter lagi dan itu artinya gw bakal ngabisin dana nyaris sejuta cuma buat bahan doaaaaaaaaaang ditambah lagi ntar ongkos jaitnya 1jt huhuhu padahal gw rencananya gamau ngabisin dana lebih dari 500rb buat dress prom, soalnya gw pikir useless aja kalo mahal2 cuma buat prom doang. tapi karena nyokap gw beliin bahannya yang itu jadi yaudah harus gimana lagi. Sebenernya gw seneng2 aja sih soalnya bahannya bagus banget dan temennya nyokap gw itu tuh bukan penjait asal, dia tuh designer terus punya butik juga gitu jadi pasti hasilnya bagus banget, tapi gw ga rela aja overbudget cuma gara2 dress prom huhuhu tapi yaudahlah semoga aja hasilnya bagus :s

ohya Alhamdulillah gw lega banget sama hasil pengumuman uan kemaren. Tapi turut sedih juga buat 8 orang temen gw yang belom seberuntung yang lain :'-(

Grown old

I'm afraid of being old. I'm frightened just by thinking about it
I don't want. i really really don't want to be old.
It's not that i'm afraid of starting getting wrinkles, or crow's feet, or white hair, or anything, even well, i don't like those ideas too. I am just scared of myself getting older everyday. The more i am matured, the more i should've understood what i ought to do, do my own thing and not just standing still in the same place. In other words, i should change, move. But i don't know, or maybe i just don't want to.I want to live my everyday, without any single thought that my age is being added up. Every morning, or dawn, or maybe the night when i couldn't sleep, i woke up and found, i'd been a day older than who I was the day before. And then, by the next 365 days i would've been a year older. Doesn't it seem long? Setiap tahun baru, gw sering ngeliat temen2 dan orang2 disekitar gw sibuk bikin sederet panjang list 'this year resolution' or something like that. Yah emang sih, logically, there should be a huge chance for us to change in a year. But for me, it wasn't, really. I was still the same person, changing only a bit and was obviously not worth a year to be like that.

Kalo ngomongin ini, gw jadi inget sama temen gw, Argi. One day gw pernah liat pm msn dia 'takut dewasa', and im shocked, ternyata temen gw sendiri juga ada yang berpikiran sama kaya gw. Terus akhirnya gw chat sama dia dan ngomongin sedikit tentang hal ini. Alesannya sih sama, we're just not ready yet to carrying an unbearable burden on our tiny shoulders. And now, i think its normal for me to worried about this one, khususnya buat yang seumuran gw (yang baru lulus sma dan ngerasa 'dipaksa' ngehadapin dunia yang jauh lebih dewasa dan sangat menuntut), it's very normal. Because being adult is pathetic, really. And thinking that every teenager, is thinking this way, sounds more pathetic, doesn't it?

I feel that life is being too fast. Hey, it's 2009! I'll be eighteen. And soon it will be 2010. I'll be nineteen. Twenty. Twenty! Can you imagine that? Oh gosh, I don't want to grow up anymore. I don't want to be dead either. I want to live without getting older.
Maybe I just want to be seventeen forever.
Im selfish, aren't it?

Another boring day

rrrrrrrrrr hari ini boseeeeeen bgt. bokap nyokap juga belom pulang2 padahal janjinya sore ini udah pulang huhuhu padahal tuh gw mau minta uang buat beli sesuatu gitu buat ulang taun thafan besok. bilangnya sih mereka malem ini pulang abis maghrib, ya semoga aja deh, kalo ga pulang juga bisa gawat banget kan. pokonya hari ini bener2 nothing special lah, seharian gw cuma tidur makan dan tidur lagi dan nonton tv yang beritanya tentang manoharaaaaaaa mulu (but im quite interested with this topic, actually) dan terus tidur lagi terus bangun, makan pancake buatan mbak yang nyummmmmy terus ol dan gw rasa abis ini gw mau tidur lagi huaaaaaaa mau jadi apa nih gw. iya abisnya mata gw lagi iritasi, udah 2 hari ini merah terus berair mulu, perih banget deh, kalo liat cahaya dikit rasanya silaaau banget huhu kayanya gara2 gw salah beli pembersih softlens deh soalnya gw ga beli merk yang biasa gw pake, jadi mungkin ga cocok gitu huhuuuu makanya bawaannya pengen gw meremin aja deh matanya, makanya hari ini gw tidur mulu (padahal emang udah dasarnya gw kebo)

And i can't get these songs out of my head today :
Lady Gaga - again again
(recommended by asteria, last night when he came to my house to sleep over hihi)

You've gotta a lotta lotta nerve
Coming here when i'm still with him
And i can't have you, it isn't fair
Born march of '86, my birthday's coming
And if i had one wish
Yeah, you'd be it
When you're 'round
I lose myself inside your mouth
You've got brown eyes
Like no one else
Baby make it to me
Again and again
Again, again, again, again
Never stop again and again
Again, again, a-a-again, again..............

Let's take a mirror, baby

This morning, when I woke up... I wondered, I've made soooo many mistakes in my whole life. okay, too wide, it should be: I've made sooo many mistakes in my relationship. too many 'till can't be counted. too many tears that I shouldn't be exploaded because every little trouble is actually caused by me. say it one by one: selfish, emotional, bad-temperated, silly, moody, stupid, and those kind of things.

One day, gw pernah ribut lumayan gede sama thafan. Waktu itu gw ribut di telfon, dan pas temen2nya thafan lagi pada main ke rumah dia gitu deh, jadi otomatis temen2nya denger gw ribut sama dia.

(saling bacot2an panjang lebaaaaaaaaaar)
30 menit sesudahnya
T : yaudah deh! aku capek! yaudah ya ntar aku telfon lagi, kamu jangan macem2, jangan aneh2 atau ngapa2in sama cowo2 lain loh! awas pokonya!
A : hah? kamu ga usah sok nasehatin aku kaya gitu deh! emang aku pernah kaya gitu?
mendingan lo ngaca deh fan!
T : hah? ngaca? kok aku malah disuruh ngaca sih! (dengan nada yang bener2 goblok)
..........(suara ketawa temen2nya thafan)

Itu pertama kalinya gw nyuruh thafan 'ngaca' pas kita lagi ribut. As we all know, 'ngaca' itu kan sama dengan intropeksi diri, tapi mungkin waktu itu dia lagi gebleeeek jadi ga ngeh sama apa yang gw omongin, hahaha how silly :-D. Sampe sekarang gw masih sering ngomong kaya gitu kalo kita lagi ribut. Tapi dia jadinya malah suka nanggepin becanda gitu.

Actually, gw sama thafan tuh sering, emm bukan sering deh, tapi seriiiiiiiiing bangeeeeeeeet ribut. it's just like crazy to have this kinda relationship. I know we're so much in love, and we can't live without another one, but sometimes we have been too tired to be in this relationship..
Until now, we're both still don't know what we must supposed to do. But now, i think we must to take a look at ourself than keep judging each other. Intropeksi diri, hal yang kedengerennya sepele tapi nyatanya paling susah dilakuin. dan, apa gunanya intopeksi diri, kalo abis itu kita tetep ngelakuin kesalahan yang sama? Buat gw, setiap gw ribut sama dia dan setelah itu baikan, always means there is a new hope and chance for our relationship to getting better. Just take the bright side, setiap kita ribut, selalu ada pelajaran yang kita dapetin kan?

no time for regreting anything, just go with the flow....

Places you have to visit in Bali

Heeeeeeeemmmmm jadi ceritanya tadi tuh gw abis nonton tv terus ada acara 'jalan-jalan', itu loh yang semacam acara travelling to somewhere and then ngejelasin hal-hal menarik disana. Trus yang ngebawa acaranya tuh mario lawalata ~_~ sama model cantik gitu syapa ya namanya gw lupa. Pokonya mereka ke thailand gitu deh dan sukses bikin gw ngiri jadi pengen ke thailaaaaaand huhu. Teruuus gw juga jadi pengen deh jadi presenter acara kaya gitu, udah jalan2 gratis terus dibayar pula haha.

Dan sekarang, gw juga mau sok2an kaya gitu ya haha tempatnya ga usah jauh2 thailand deh (berhubung gw ga pernah kesana juga) paling cuma sekitar europe aja kok, yeeeeh itu lebih ga mungkin ya. Hem karena gw cinta indonesia jadi tempatnya bali aja yaaaaaa hihihi still interesting, right? soalnya taun 2008 lalu, gw sering banget kesana. Kan kakak gw yang cewe kerja disana jadi ya lumayan sering nemenin nyokap kesana, terus pas liburan juga gw kesana sama temen2 gw. Jadi ya gw lumayan tau deh tempat2 oke disana yang lo juga harussssssss kunjungin!

Here we goooooooooo.........

1) Legian, kuta

(+) iyalah gw rasa semua orang yang ke bali juga pasti kesini!

tapi walaupun berjuta-juta kali dikunjungin, ga bakal ngebosenin kok.

Daerah yang paling lengkap lah, mulai dari pantai, club, lounge, sampe

tempat2 belanja ada disini. But the best part of kuta is the night life!

(-) pantainya kotor, bener-bener bikin gw maleeees banget ke pantainya even if it just for sunbathing. Dan kadang juga suka overcrowded gitu.

recommended places: ocean beach club, & monumen tragedi legian.

2) Nusa dua

(+) gw pernah nginep di salah satu resort disini, suasananya emang beda banget sama di kuta, disini lebih banyak private beachnya jadi suasananya lebih tenang. Kalo buat tempat nginep, menurut gw disini the best, soalnya disini emang banyak banget resort2 dan hotel bintang lima yang gilaaaaaa deh bagusnya (dengan harga yang gila juga sih).

(-) nusa dua lumayan jauh dari tempat2 rame kaya kuta, seminyak dan denpasar.

3) Sanur

kalo pantai kuta terkenal sama sunsetnya, pantai sanur terkenal sama sunrisenya. Soalnya kan kuta sama sanur letaknya berlawanan gitu. Dan gw sama nyokap gw pernah kesana pagi-pagi buta demi ngeliat sunrise itu. Tapi emang beneran keren kok.

recommended place: restaurant nasi campur, toward Segara village Sanur. But if you come after 9 am, you probably won't be lucky to get the meal because the nasi campur is already sold out. So you must come early (before 9 am)!

4) Ubud

(+)kalo lo bosen liat pantai-pantai terus, coba ke ubud deh. View nya beda dari tempat2 lain di Bali soalnya Ubud tuh kalo ga salah letaknya di dataran yang agak tinggi gitu. Banyak view pedesaan yang keren2 bangeeeet.

(-)karena letaknya di tengah pulau Bali, otomatis jauuuuh dari denpasar dan tempat2 crowded disekitarnya.

reccomended places: Bebek bengil restaurant, they have a very delicious crispy duck! & pasar seni sukowati di gianyar, letaknya kan sama2 jauh dari denpasar, dan kalo dari ubud jadinya lumayan deket.

5) Jimbaran

aduh baru ngetik 'jimbaran' aja kayanya gw langsung laper terus pengen makan seafoooooood :s beneran deh, disini tuh seafood nya pol banget deh enaknya. Pokonya sepanjang pantai di Jimbaran itu tuh dipenuhin sama restaurant2 seafood, saking panjangnya sampe dibagi jadi 3 area gitu. Tapi menurut gw semuanya sama aja kok.

The best time to eat here is late afternoon, when you still can enjoy the beautiful blue sky, listen the sound of the waves, while waiting for the sunset.

6) Seminyak

this is my 2nd favourites place in Bali after kuta!

gw ga butuh banyak jelasin, langsung ke recommended places aja yaaaaaaa

recommended places: of coooooourseeee, 'Double six'! Double Six is known as the best club in Bali. And im sure you'd like 'Syndicate' tooooo ;-) tapi yang bener2 paliiiing gw suka tuh Kudeta. Kudeta is one of the most exclusive bar & restaurant in Bali. High quality food and views over the ocean make this a must see on a visit to Baliiii! (geregetan)

7) Tanjung Benoa

Tanjung Benoa are loaded with water-sports operators and reviewing them all would be a whole guide section in itself. Letaknya dekeeeet banget sama nusa dua. Dan heeeeey itu foto gw lagi parasailing loh, haha bukan deng bukan, it wasn't me, itu manda, temen gw yang nyoba parasailing disana. Gw bener2 ga berani, jadi cuma fotoin aja -__-. Disana water-sports nya lengkap banget, dan yang harus banget lo coba: diving & flying fish!

tips: harga water-sports disana lumayan mahal, tapi bukan harga fix kok, biasalaaah harga buat bule gitu, jadi kita harus pinter2 nawar. terus biasanya lo juga bisa 'nyogok' mas2 pantai yang nganterin kita (yang berotot dan overtanned itu loh, haha) buat ngasih tambahan2 permainan (tanpa bilang2 ke officer-nya) dengan cuma kita kasih 20/30 ribu. hihihi

8) Dreamland Beach

kalo ga salah letaknya di daerah Jimbaran deh.

Lautnya bener2 masih biruuuuuuu banget, pasirnya juga bersiiiiih banget. Buat ngejaga kebersihannya, tempat parkirnya sampe harus jauh2 dari pantai.

tapi kayanya di foto ini pemandangannya ga enak banget ya, close-up ke muka gw gitu haha. Jadi nih gw kasih foto yang ngeliatin view nya ya, so you could see more clearly how beautiful dreamland is.....

cool yaaaaaaaa? Being in Dreamland is like being in a dream you wish you will never wake up from! beneran deh!

naaaaaaaaaaaah sekian ya jalan-jalan bersama saya di bali haha. huuuuuuu sebenernya sih masih pengen nyeritain banyak tempat, kaya tanah lot, uluwatu, lovina, dan masih banyak deh tempat yang pernah gw kunjungin disana! tapi next time aja yaaaaaaaaaa

another holiday is in my wish list! :---p

Nabung bang bing bung

Sekarang gw lagi kesel banget karena abis di marahin nyokap gara2 gw minta ke bali lagi bareng temen2 liburan ini. Bukan dimarahin juga sih, tapi lebih tepatnya dinasihatin. Iyaaaa gitu deh gw di nasihatin supaya bisa mulai me-manage keuangan gw (yang amburadul sejak atm diblokir bokap, ha-ha). Dan secara wish list gw buat bokap yang udah semakin membludak, jadilah bokap nyokap gw resmi ngelarang gw buat ke bali. Dan dari tadi tuh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, nyokap gw nasihatin gw berulang2 supaya gw bisa belajar buat nabung.

Nabung?

Well, honestly, i never really did that.

Parahnya, gw baru sadar detik ini, kalo gw tuh ternyata emang ga pernah (dan ga bisa) nabung. Dan gw juga baru sadar kalo ternyata tuh nyokap bokap gw udah ngajarin gw nabung dari duluuuuuu bgt dan fatalnya, semua yang udah diajarin nyokap bokap gw itu, ga pernah berakhir sukses deh. Ini beberapa hal yang gw inget betapa buruknya gw me-manage keuangan:

1. Waktu baru masuk sma, bokap gw bikinin gw atm dengan budget tertentu per bulan, tujuannya sih biar tiap bulannya gw bisa nyisihin sebagian dari uang itu. Tapi masalahnya, uang bulanan yang bokap gw kasih tuh jumlahnya menggiurkan banget buat gw yang masih piyik-piyik gitu. Jadi bukannya gw sisihin, malahan gw bisa2 ga makan di minggu ke-4 setiap bulannya gara2 gw udah kalap duluan di awal bulan. Gw jadi konsumtif banget, semua barang yang gw suka, even if it doesn't really necessary, pasti gw beli. Dan tanpa bokap nyokap gw tau, gw terus ngelakuin hal kaya gitu (defisit di minggu terakhir setiap bulannya) selama gw kelas 1 sma!

2. Pas naik kelas 2 sma, aktifitas gw bertambah, mulai dari join member di celeb, ekskul cheers sampe les lia. Otomatis bokap gw nambahin budget uang bulanan atm gw (yang bikin gw makin kalap). Sampe di suatu bulan, di minggu ke-4 nya (seperti biasa) gw mulai defisit dan gw memutuskan untuk ngambil spp gw bulan itu (gw pikir kan "ah ntar bulan depan gw lunasin deh pake uang bulanan gw") dan fatalnya, ternyata gw nglakuin hal kaya gitu sampe 5 kali, yang berarti, gw ngambil uang spp gw 5 bulaaaaaaaan! Jadi deh di akhir semester 1 gw di kelas 2 sma, gw ketar-ketir sendiri mikirin gimana caranya ngelunasin spp 5 bulan, soalnya ternyata (gw dulu baru tau) kalo spp 1 semester belom lunas tuh ga bisa ngambil raport. Dan yah, akhirnya, pas bokap gw ngambil raport, speechless deh dia ngeliat kartu spp gw yang masih kosong. Bokap ga marah sih, 'cuma' ngeblokir atm gw doang kok :'''''''''''''-(

3. Di semester 2 kelas 2, bokap gw bener-bener ga mau ngasih gw atm lagi. Sampe pada suatu hari bokap gw ngasih gw credit card. Tujuannya, biar uang cash yang bokap gw kasih ke gw, bisa gw sisihin setiap bulannya, jadi kalo gw mau beli apa-apa yang perlu, ya tinggal pake credit card itu aja. Dulu sih di bayangan gw "credit card? waaaaw sounds cool deh". Tapi setelah gw liat credit card yang dikasih bokap gw, duh bener2 ga ada cool2nya deh, bentuknya mini terus ada gambar tazmania-nya gitu (credit card for teen-nya bca itu loh). Terus, dengan begonya di minggu pertama gw udah ngeludesin limit credit card itu. Iya, jadi credit card itu bener2 gw ludesin cuma untuk beli beberapa baju di pim. Soalnya dulu gw mikirnya gw kan tetep dikasih uang cash buat keperluan sehari-hari, jadi gw bisa beli apapun yang gw suka dong pake credit card ini, toh bokap nyokap gw ga bakal tau (duh bego banget ga sih?). Sampe pas nyokap gw marah2 karena limit credit card gw bisa abis secepet itu, gw cuma bengong sambil mikir "loh kok bisa ketauan ya?". Begooooooooooooooo

4. Dan bahkan sampe sekarang gw kelas 3, gw (masih) belom bisa nabung. But it doesn't mean i wasn't trying. Sering banget gw nyoba buat nyisihin uang gw setiap harinya di sela dompet gw (just like some of my friends did) but it doesn't work, at all.

fyi, beberapa hari yang lalu bokap gw ngasih flazz card nya bca itu loh, haha.
Ya gitu deh semacam kartu yang bisa di isi saldo lewat atm, terus fungsinya kaya uang cash, yang tinggal kita pake di toko atau counter yang nyediain pembayaran flazz card.
Awalnya gw pikir agak ga guna ah, tapi lama-lama seru juga sih haha norak.

Jadi ya intinya, sampe sekarang, gw belom pernah menghasilkan apa-apa dari uang yang gw tabung. Suka iri deh, liat temen gw yang bisa beli sesuatu pake hasil uang yang dia tabung. Ngeliat temen gw yang kaya gitu, bahkan bikin gw mikir, kok bisa ya dia nahan godaan2 belanja diluar sana 'cuma' karena tabungan? Tapi salah satu sahabat gw, Manda, juga sama banget kok kaya gw. Selalu berusaha nabung walaupun tau ujung-ujungnya ga bakal sukses, haha. Yang penting sih keep trying aja, sampe suatu saat bakal ada rasa kesadaran buat nabung yang bener2 serius.

Oke mulai sekarang gw mau belajar nabung (lagi),
Seriously!

unreasonable 22

Last week, when i accompanied thafan for his hockey competition, i took a few photos of him. And i think this one is one of my best shots.

That's him with his hockey costume. I really loooooooove the number! (he picked our favourite number) yeeeey! <3

At that day, i accompanied him for 12 hours! can you imagine? 12 jam di senayan, dan sorenya sempet keujanan pula huhu but it doesnt really matter sih, malahan gw seneng bisa seharian sama dia (owww). Lumayan rame anak 46 yang dateng kesana, dan banyak juga yang masih pada gimanaaaaaaaaaa gitu ngeliat gw bareng thafan (i cant explain it, but im sure you guys can understand it, hehe) wajar sih, secara our relationship never really being exposed since we've been together. Kenapa gw baru mau nge-expose hubungan gw akhir2 ini? soalnya, honestly, dulu gw masih belom siap diomongin sama orang2. Bukannya pedeeee, but at my school, even walls have ears, so you must act carefully if you dont want being talked. Dan kenapa gw takut banget diomongin sama temen-temen sekolah gw sendiri? because sometimes their words are as sharp as needles and blades, and i always dont have a chance to clarify everything because they always make their own conclusions. But now, i really dont care about all those thiiiiiiiiings :----D

One important thing that people must know is, our relationship isn't as weak as it seems. One day, dia pernah ngelakuin kesalahan yang besaaaaar banget dan (menurut gw) itu udah fatal banget deh. Terus gw cerita sama regina, sahabat gw. Gw bener2 nyeritain semua yang bikin gw kesel sambil nangis ga karuan. And then she asked me, "yaudah kalo dia udah jahat sama lo, why do you still fall with him? what do you see in him?" Considering her words, i wondered, kept thinking and couldn't find the answer or reason that would fit the question.

Well, i do love him, but it's unreasonable, i just cant explain it.
Later, there is someone said "You've overrated him. He's just a cruel liar, a jerk"
Maybe she's true, but, what could i say?
There're gazillion guys out there, which, maybe, better i guess.
But when it comes to him, no words needed.

Not-really new

New blog...................again, not really new actually because i have had a blog, but as usual, i forgot my password. but it's okay, my old blog is the freakiest blog ever.

Hmm i'll be back when i find something to write about. Bye